Behind striking avatar

find me – unique person

of real flesh and blood.

Strange amalgam of

hopes & dreams

joys and sorrows

success and failure.

Consciously hiding away,

desperately concealing

inadequacy and vulnerability.


Preferring to be seen

as I may prefer to be,

rather than complex

mixture that I’ve become…

For would that make me

more endearing ? perhaps

more acceptable ? maybe

With such uncertainty within

I resolve not to show ‘real’ me

but will remain for now


Completely wrapped

in that other world

of make believe,

unprepared to face up,

yet longing for

I know not what…

Perhaps an escape plan

to change my world

and launch me into

instant utopia