It’s 3 weeks since my brother passed away and I miss him like crazy.
The grieving process for me has been deep, as waves of sadness sweep over me at unexpected moments, and for no apparent reason other than they’re inside & need to get out. Of course, the ability to express grief through writing has been immensely important and therapeutic, which is why I’ve not hesitated to share my experience through Ready Writer – also I guess if it can help one other person on their painful journey, then the exercise will be doubly worth-while.
This morning, during early devotions, another wave crashed onto the shore-line of my broken heart. As it surged over me, somehow I was able to recall and hang on to words which have been sustaining me during this period – “Into my grieving I weave …” Here’s a link to a previous post entitled: Into-My-Grieving
Now, reading in the Psalms has proved such a solace over many years, and today was no exception, for Psalm 107 ministered deeply, bringing re-assurance of God’s ‘enduring love’ and the knowledge that He delivers from distress those who call on him in trouble – the refrain of verses 6, 13, 19 and 28.
Furthermore, verses 29, 30 of the Psalm spoke directly to my heart with the following words: “He stilled the storm to a whisper; the waves of the sea were hushed. They were glad when it grew calm, and he guided them to their desired haven” – reminding me of Jesus as He stood in fishing boat on Lake Galilee and ordered wind and waves: “Be muzzled” – Oh, the peace my Saviour brings.
If that was not sufficient I also found my way to some incredible words of Celtic Daily Prayer (in Book Two) as follows:-
Declaration of Faith
Lord, I will trust You, help me to journey beyond the familiar and into the unknown
Give me the faith to leave old ways and break fresh ground with You
Christ of the mysteries, can I trust You to be stronger than each storm in me ?
I determine amidst all uncertainty always to trust
I choose to live beyond regret, and let You recreate my life
I believe You will make a way for me and provide for me, if only I trust You
I will trust in the darkness and know that my times are still in Your hand
I will believe You for my future, chapter by chapter, until all the story is written
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I believe God’s sustaining grace is enough and more than enough.
Changing to another metaphor, I’m profoundly grateful that the Good Shepherd is with me even as I walk through this dark valley.
Thank You, Jesus